Up and Coming

Spent some much needed time in Sage's garden today planting her winter flowers. It was so nice to get out there and work in the soil. I will post pictures when it picks up and looks nice.

I want to get this garden cherub...I love the saying on it and I will put it in her garden.

I have been asked to speak at the annual remembrance ceremony for Hospice. It is when families gather for a candle light ceremony to remember our children that have died. I am honored to speak but am trying to figure out what to say. Do I go sentimental, light, or write something poetic? I know that I will come to the right answer when the time approaches.....

What to do....

It actually happened....we are pregnant! What an emotional roller coaster even just in these first few days. Crying for joy then crying from grief all within the same day. The most confounding thing is wondering when to take Sage's name off the door. Her name is on the door as well as over the crib...when do you take it down? I guess when we find out who this baby is and have a name to put up in place. I didn't think about that part......

Can we say awwwwwkkkward?

Know what makes for an uncomfortable morning? How about melting down in a room full of your professional peers and having to leave halfway through the day! I think the highlight was blurting out in-between sobs "it's halloween and my daughter died".........it wouldn't have been so bad except I have to work with these people for the next 4 years or so......bring on the uncomfortable remarks, silence, and overall weirdness!