Wednesday, June 30, 2010
You've got to be kidding......
A very good friend of mine who I met from SHARE boards just lost her baby at 24 weeks....... Since I met her at SHARE you can guess that she has had a loss before. She lost twin boys at 20 weeks due to infection...it will be 2 years this winter. This boy she tried for for months and months. We don't know why he died.....she just said his heart stopped beating. It was a flood of emotions that rushed me back to 18 months ago when Sage died. I couldn't/can't believe it. Every time my phone dings and its her texting me I have a flash of though that maybe they were wrong....maybe they will find that heartbeat flutter right before they induce her. I know it's not true but I have that irrational thought....just like I had the irrational thought that Sage would "wake up" when they did the apnea tests. My heart is breaking for her and her husband. It just isn't fair....she deserves a baby....a live one. Honestly, having to bury 3 baby boys in 2 years is cruel and wrong and unnatural. My dear friend, I hold your boys in my heart....Benjamin, Jacob, and now Ryaan.
Posted by These kids' mama at 5:16 PM