Wednesday, June 30, 2010

You've got to be kidding......

A very good friend of mine who I met from SHARE boards just lost her baby at 24 weeks....... Since I met her at SHARE you can guess that she has had a loss before. She lost twin boys at 20 weeks due to infection...it will be 2 years this winter. This boy she tried for for months and months. We don't know why he died.....she just said his heart stopped beating. It was a flood of emotions that rushed me back to 18 months ago when Sage died. I couldn't/can't believe it. Every time my phone dings and its her texting me I have a flash of though that maybe they were wrong....maybe they will find that heartbeat flutter right before they induce her. I know it's not true but I have that irrational thought....just like I had the irrational thought that Sage would "wake up" when they did the apnea tests. My heart is breaking for her and her husband. It just isn't fair....she deserves a baby....a live one. Honestly, having to bury 3 baby boys in 2 years is cruel and wrong and unnatural. My dear friend, I hold your boys in my heart....Benjamin, Jacob, and now Ryaan.

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  1. that is terrible. so unfair and wrong.

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  3. Oh my! I can't believe I am reading this. I just got home from my friend's burial of her third son. She was just over 20 weeks. She lost her twin boys in January 2009. And they were named Benyamin, Yacob and Illyas. For a moment, I thought it was the same person. But, we don't live near each other; so it couldn't be. I am so sorry to hear that. They are in my prayers as well.

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  4. It's her....I posted the English translations of their names and the baby's name was changed after I posted this.

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  5. I am so sorry, I just posted a prayer on my blog for why these struggles have to continue after we have already been thru so much. Hugs to you and hugs to your friend, im glad she has you. xxx

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